Sunday, July 29, 2007
shucks!!! fuck up!!!! wa liao!!!
hais..hp kena confiscated.
jus pray hard he don see e contents inside..
especially e smses..
y always they worry in this way..so sorry tt tis don get thru me hor..i already very guai compared to others le hor..i did not dye my hair till "bu san bu si" l0r..i did not run away from homei did not cut myselfi did not had many ear holes..i did not mixed wid ah lians and ah bengs..i already very guai l0r!!!at my age i shld b enjoying!!! not under CONTROL!!!!i'm not an adult!!! i need 2 play!!!!!everyday its either skul or band..To: my dad..hey if you don lyk my bands its alrite but i will nvr quit cuz i'll die...i will really die!!but u cannot snatch away e youthfulness tt i muz hav at tis age..jie jie and kor kor all grown up adults le..but i'm not!!!
i'm only 17!!!i had a very super big age gap wid them!its 4 yrs, 6 yrs, 8 yrs and 9yrs respectively!so u cannot expect me 2 behave e same way they did!!and if they can hang out every sun, y cant i?if they can go out everyday without having to go skul, y cant i?y do u always hav 2 blame mummy 1st whn things go wrong wid e family??did u urself keep track wadz gng on with e family anot?everytime is mummy call de l0r..u only noe how 2 call and scold!its wrong way of communication tt u use!!and its the WRONG way of worrying, caring and loving..i noe u love us all, i noe u tried 2 provide us wid everything cuz according 2 wad u hav experienced you din hav much privilage lyk us now.but tt doesnt mean u care 4 us lyk tt..u care 4 us on e outside, wad time we come home, worry as a parent. i noei all noe..but thn did u care how i feel..if u're e kid, u hav a father who will scold u if u do things tt are not acceptable to him lyk playing and fooling ard..everytime u ans e call u'll get scolding from him, thn will u still ans e call??he still ask me y i don wanna ans e call, i'm scared!!!everytime u scold, i'm so tired of it tt i don wanna bother.if i sae tis rite at ur face, how would u feel?u'll tink tt u hav not done enough, but thn you shld sae "i shld change another way of caring".i'm feel so sourly sad in my heart.i noe its diff from wad we desire, but y cant i hav my parents 2 b more forgiving?as in, for example, they will talk nicely to u, not scolding!by scolding u are showing ur authority and u will make e person even more scared of u..tell u wad..since u take away my hp,i will do as my normal..i will c if mon got anything, if not i will go home 4 dinner..tue i will not go home tt early..i will hang ard till i happy..wed not skul but i go piano..i'm so gng 2 tke my own sweet time 2 go home..thurs i got band, btw i'm gng rpws not sws.. thn i will tke my time go home..fri after skul tt i will walk ard b4 i go home...sat i will lock myself in e room, i will not pick up any call, i will only b online, sun i'm gng band again..i will go till very very very super late. i will c wad happen.
11:24 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
wadz wrong?
aiyo..
wadz wrong?
y i cant seem to get up early?
am i slping too late?
i guess i am slping too late..
wad to do,
i really hav stuff to do lar...
hmmm...
i'm thinking of getting a new alarm clock..
i'm not saying human alarm clock is not good.
but thn i tink i need 1 which is super noisy
can scare me and nag at me 2 wake up...
i always refuse to wake up and lyk to "lai chuang"
hais...
omg...
xiaoli XD
12:04 AM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
feeling down??
sigh...these few days jus cant cheer myself up..i dunu y....=.=hmmmm...concerts are coming up...1 of it i can confirm is RPWS presents Symphonie de Republiquevenue: rp campus TRCCdate: 8 sept '07time: 7pmtickets @ $10 & $12repertoire:1.take center stage2. First suite in Eb3. sea song4. highland fling!5. I need to be in love6. Ross roy7. Believe8. Disco lives 9. Soul Bossanova10. Lord of the dance.---------------------------------the other concert is SWS beautiful sunday..its partly celebration for national day..pieces we playing will be..-postcard from singapore-asian selections-home-stand up for singapore-singapura suite (SYF set piece in 1999)- and others lah..don remember..venue: Esplanade auditoriumdate: 12 aug'o7time: not sure yet..tickets are not on sale..cuz its free!hahas..ok la..i oso dunu wad 2 blog about le..sayonara..aku pergi makan^^buai buai..xiaoli``
6:54 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
suay again
haiss..ytd is keychain lost by fren..today is lost hp...sian...but thn lucky thing is that tis person call my fren and sae my phone is wid her.Tis person work inside "holiday inn" which is in between tiong bahru and outram park mrt station.so later i'm gng down to tke back..now i'm e 1 who become toot toot...LOLLMAO...haha...nvm...lata can tke back..suay-ed,shirley
12:03 PM
happy and sad
haiyo, tt little keychian lost its partner..
bought it from HK de temple street.
but aiya, tink its fate tt it will be lost on a cab..
i don blame u for losing it k??
its ok de la..
but wad makes me happy is tt cuz i long time i nvr watch tv show le mah..
thn i saw the beginning introduction song of "twisted" thn i saw e keychain!!!!
omg!!!!!!
haha...so happy...
ppl use it in tv show..
since i can see it on tv, thn i should b able to find it back rite?
already made e report..case no . L224599,if i'm not wrong.haha....
god pls bless us 2 b able 2 find tt keychain, alrite?
believing..
Shirley
12:17 AM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
its ok, its alrite
aiya...nvm la..its ok, its alrite.. so i jus continue wid my plans, go along wid my path..and i'll make it great 1 day.i'm so sure of that.!!!jia you!cheerios,shirley
5:39 PM
Monday, July 09, 2007
i still didnt make it..for the post tt i wanted since sec1
actually i think all of u dunu..wad i wanted since sec 1..was not only to be the section leader.wad i wanted was to pass on wad i noe to the others.but..i told myself its ok...since i tried 2 times and it failed.which may b a sign tt i'm not gng the conducting way in future??i'm feeling very terrible la.especially now la.i'm trying to let myself feel beta...now......i wish tt i could cry out at tis very moment. but i cant.i don wanna cry in front of people in the room..so i tink i jus keep quiet bah..don sae anything, don hav espressions.nth..controlling tears..controlling..help..i need help...seriously need help..i'm not saying tt i die die muz b the acm la..i'm not saying anything bad abt e decision or wad.is jus that i was given hope b4 tt and this hope jus ran away jus lyk tt..cuz i jus cant commit.i jus cant.i tell u, life is gng 2 b difficult if i'm become the section leader again.again..and again..especially in a growing band its so difficult.well..in the end, i still hav 2 sae tis..Song ren, congrates2 u..and all e best, k?we both hav some things tt each other don hav so decision was hard, i understand..i will not blame any1.but pls promise tt u will bring up the band for me, for every1 k? they're depending on u.jiayou bah..i'm gng 2 continue my plans, b in sws, attend all concerts.perform well.do sth 2 improve my playing . and decide my path later on.c where shld i go, which country, which profession, which university, what career...do your best...i'm ok..self consolation really do works la..sayonara!jia you!cheers!shirley
9:16 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
dont force me
i really cannot quit SWS la..
cuz i audit inside myself using my own strength.
i practice very hard for that..
there's no reason you shld gif up the thing that you put effort on b4.
you all nvr been me so u all don understand
its an achievement..
being in SWS has been my proud ever since i step inside.
it isnt that easy l0r..
only inside then i can at least maintain my standard.
i'm sorry to sae that whn i'm in school band, my standard always tends to drop down..
is only whn SWS is ard thn i can keep my standard.
i'm not saying tt tis band is not gd..
they hav potential.
is jus tt they need 2 b brought tgt nicely.
being acm can make me improve a lot. in terms of musicallity and others.
i can go further with this experience..
ever since pri 2 when i started learning piano, i already planned that i wanna go the music path..
the way i want it to b..
although there are some alterations abt the path,
i still gng e same way, jus tt its more detailed.
last time i only tink abt wad path i wanna go.
now i will tink abt wad profession i wanna go into.
i told myself its either performing or educating or conducting.
but which is the 1 that i'm more capable of..
i'm still not sure..
i want this acm thing 2 help me make part of my choice oso..
i really cant bear 2 leave SWS..
my memories are being built there.
i cant bear to..
really cant...
no1 will understand the other's passion..
u jus cant understand it..
cant bear to...
Shirley
8:56 AM
Monday, July 02, 2007
it's quite some time since i blog..well, currently am waiting for the results of ACM...heard quite alot of gd comments about myself on tt day..it was encouraging..very...tink by tues thn e results will be out...i was asked abt my committment...so i thought abt it..i cant get hold of both things at the same time..i hav 2 let go 1 into 2 hav e other....so i made tis decision...during tis july month, i'm gng 2 commit myself fully to RPWS..though it's bad for me as i hav concert coming up which is very important cuz mr noname is coming 2 conduct..i admire jap musicians alot..cuz they're really very precise abt the details inside the score...which is wad i'm trying to implement on the band rite now too..to be precise...be more demanding so as to achieve more...so i will go always go RPWS till aug thn i will go back 2 sws as the CM will b ard..n i believe the conductor is around also..haha..so it will b beta de..i will prac..as always i will do my homework..rite now i'm thinking abt ways to improve their playing..not much time..i sure the band ppl wouldnt want e concert to sound sucky..rite??hahah..tink...tink..tink...tink of it le thn put it here..Shirley^^WS
12:59 PM
